Let go, embrace the beginning again...

2014 has been a year of crazy-high highs and a year of unbelievably low lows. I'm ready for a new year. A new beginning. A time to start over. I've been slowly crawling out of the hole of depression (again) and I feel like I'm ready to get on with my life. There are new things I want to try, things I need to keep trying, and some things that I need to try all over again. I've set a few simple goals for myself for the year. Nothing too complicated, or else I'll get scared and give up. Just small changes to make, that if made, will make a big difference in how I feel and what I do. Here's hoping I can actually do them.

One of those small things I want to do is blog more. I need to. I've discovered that it really helps me to have a place where I can just empty my head. I didn't empty my head enough this past year and I paid dearly for it. I paid in time lost not feeling well, being so depressed, just wallowing around the house doing nothing. What a waste. That is time I will never get back. If I can prevent this by simply typing my thoughts out here on my blog, isn't it worth it? I'm not saying that blogging will keep the depression away completely, but I know it will help me.

There are other things I want to do, too, but I don't want to take the time to tell you about them now. They will come in future posts. Also, keep an eye out for a recap of 2014, since I didn't get to blog about everything that happened when it happened. I'll do sort of a summary of the year, with longer posts for the most important things that happened.

So here's to 2015. I hope it's a good one for you. Stay safe out there and don't party too hard tonight. :)

Happy New Year!

I'm too tired to think of a catchy title

Hello my vast audience. All two of you. I've been a bad little blogger. I need to post more often, I know. It just seems like there's never enough time to get my thoughts together. And by the time I've gotten them together, something else happens that needs more time and more thoughts. I feel like I just can't keep up with life. I'm behind on everything. From blogging to mundane around-the-house stuff. I'm just behind. I've been feeling very overwhelmed lately, by everything I have to do and just life in general. But I want to try to make a few little changes and hopefully that will help me feel better and deal with things better. 

I've been keeping a running list of things I need to blog about, so hopefully in the next couple of weeks I can make the time to sit down and write. Although with the holidays coming, I might not be able to until next year. I really need to do this though. It will really help me to be able to clear my head and get everything out. So if you start to see a ridiculous amount of new posts from me in a ridiculously short amount of time, just know that that's what I'm doing. Trying to empty my head.

I'm thinking I might also do a complete redesign of my blog. The purple swirly thingies aren't really doing it for me anymore. This will probably take awhile, since I had such a hard time getting things set up when I started blogging. Plus, who knows, they've probably changed how to do everything anyway, so I'll just have to figure it all out again. I'll focus on posting more first, then when I'm fairly caught up I'll start on the redesign.

Thanks for reading and stay tuned...

Wow

I can't believe it, but it's been one year since I got to meet Rob Rowe! That sure went by fast. It seems like it was forever ago, but yet it doesn't feel like it's been that long. It was a night I'll never forget. One of the best nights of my life. I hope I can see him again sometime...

That is all.

New Rob Rowe interview

I just thought I'd share this interview that Rob Rowe did last week with Jesse Richman at Makeup for the Silence. It's really good! 

Part 1:
http://www.makeupforthesilence.com/post/84943300515/cause-effect-its-over-now-from-trip-rob
 

Part 2: 

http://www.makeupforthesilence.com/post/85047577990/whitewaits-blackbird-spies-from-an-elegant

And Part 3:

http://www.makeupforthesilence.com/post/85141078200/whitewaits-lost-boys-from-an-elegant-exit-rob

Absent

I've been a little absent from here lately. I just realized that I haven't posted anything since December. For those of you that read my blog and hang on my every word, I apologize. To both of you.

A lot of my problem is that I have trouble thinking of stuff to write about. My life is really pretty boring. So since everything is usually the same, I figure you don't want to hear about what I bought at the grocery store, or about how much laundry I did. You're welcome.

Another problem I have is that sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything. As in nothing. I get like that once in awhile. I think it's part of my depression. So I wallow and cry and hate myself for not doing anything, but I still can't make myself do anything. I know. I'm nuts. When I get like that, even the tiniest, easiest things seem like so much. So I do what absolutely has to get done (ie. get out of bed, go to the bathroom) and that doesn't usually include blogging.

Something else that keeps me from writing is the fact that a lot of times I don't think about it until like 1:00 in the morning, and I should probably go to bed instead of spending another hour blogging about my boring little life.

So there you have it. I know I've said this before. I'll try to blog more often. I want to. I really enjoy it. I like being able to vent about things and not care who sees it. Nobody knows who I am. And probably nobody really cares. But it helps. And I can use all the help I can get.

Until next time. (Which hopefully won't be very long) :)