Today we were going through some boxes that we had never unpacked when we moved into our house. Four years ago. I saw something in one of those boxes and just started bawling. It was something that my Grandpa had made. He died 4 months ago. I thought I was over it. I mean, I guess you never get over something like that, but I thought I was okay. I guess not. I miss him so much. More than I thought. I'm not sure how to get through this. Things we see can bring back memories of fun times we had and loved ones we've lost. Memories I'll treasure forever.
I found more treasures today. Inside one of the boxes was a folder that I had been looking for for several years. I had even gone back to my parents house and dug around in my room for it without any luck. And there it was today. Inside a forgotten box in the corner.
This folder contains my very first correspondences with Rob from Cause and Effect, as well as some other stuff that belongs in my C&E collection. These things mean so much to me. I knew I had them somewhere. It was driving me crazy trying to figure out where they were. There are emails from Rob from 1996, copies of articles about Cause and Effect that I got from a record rep, and things from the fun part of my radio career. So many good memories. It was so fun going through the folder and being like "oh, there it is! I remember that!" I cried again, but this time it was happy crying. I'm so glad I found that folder.
Things and the associations we have with them are powerful. They can take you back to times you want to remember forever, or they can take you to places you never want to go back to again. They can dig up all sorts of memories and feelings.
I wonder what treasures I'll find tomorrow...
