Depression is a crazy thing. If nothing else, you feel like you're going crazy. I have been SO depressed for about a month and a half. I haven't felt this bad since before I started taking an antidepressant. And I couldn't figure out why I felt like I did. I couldn't think of anything that had set it off. I was just so miserable and I didn't really know why. Life was getting to be more than I could handle and I felt like I just couldn't take any more.
But something happened last night. All of a sudden it was gone. I actually felt it leave. It was like inside my head had been cloudy and stormy, and then the sun came out. I just realized I didn't feel like crying any more. I didn't want to die any more.
It was kind of a weird feeling to suddenly feel alright again after feeling so horrible for such a long time. I'm not bouncing off the walls with glee or anything, but I finally feel OK.
Right now, for now, everything is OK.